three months. ninety days. one season. however you want to look at it, and however much i DON'T want to look at it anymore, that specific period of time was more influential in my life than anything i've ever experienced. i learned so much and i wouldn't change anything---- but i'm ready to stop being blindsided by these feelings. it's been almost six weeks - close to half the time we spent together - and tears still creep up behind my eyelids. my throat still clenches when i hear that one song. i want to move ahead and get past this. . .
i AM moving forward, i guess, and it isn't even that i want to forget or wipe away anything that happened. i suppose i don't even know what i want.
life is beautiful, and i KNOW that. i just have to keep reminding myself.
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