only once in my life have i had a boyfriend on valentines day, and fairly soon thereafter i ran over his heart with a dumptruck. (it had to happen, but it still makes me a little sad) ...
i was reading some old journal entries the other day and i found this:
"I can't stand still long enough to love anybody" ...
the scary thing is i think that's true. i go on SO MANY first and second dates and either end up bored or terrified. bored because hardly anyone excites me, and terrified that i'm going to be forced to settle down with one of these boring people sooner or later if i don't want to spend my life alone.
i don't know.
tonight, someone i love dearly is contemplating the future of her marriage, and i can't think of anything else. it's been a pretty somber Valentine's. . . .
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